Am I sad? Exhausted? Numb? Of course! I catch myself carrying on and then it hits me again that I will never rub his back, never hear him call me 'beautiful mother', never hear his laugh, never taste his cleverly created culinary concoctions, and never see his eyes smile. Oh God, how hard this truth of my loss is. Thank you for walking me through the tunnel of this pain.
This town has stepped up, actually they have organized an army. Our every need is being taken care of so we are left to share our grief and love with our family who are ascending on our town to just be with us. There is food overflowing into my Cathy's house cuz no way could it all fit here. My Young Life girls ran over (literally) during there lunch just to give me a hug and tell me they love me. Because of my incredible school family, I was able to feed them a delicious lunch. The lunch after Ryan's good bye party is all taken care of and Ron and I don't even have to worry about it. The angels at several churches are teaming up with our school to take care of everything. Cathy has taken on such a leadership role tirelessly fitting everything into place. Even though, she loved Ryan and is grieving too.
Tonight was wonderful with my family here looking through pictures, watching videos, sharing memories, and of course eating and drinking the marvelous food. Food that was provided from the love and support of this hometown, our hometown.
My son is gone from my touch but his life is being celebrated and this week will be precious to me my whole life. Thank you Ryan for the love and the knowledge that you are having your own celebration with your loved ones up above.
In Him,
Joyful
4-7-2010
4-7-2010
I am thankful for this blog, everything you write is beautiful and well spoken. I think you should contact the paper and see about doing a weekly article about life love and loss. I would read it and I know everyone else would
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