Conflicts Occur

Life is not always easy there are bumps in the road for even the most loving relationships. I know I can hurt feelings, say the wrong thing, make bad decisions, and not learn from past mistakes. Tonight is one of those hard nights where everyone in the house is angry and disappointed in each other. I know my choices and misspoken words are as responsible for this as my family members.

The knot in my stomach is there because I don't want conflict even though realistically conflict occurs between people even when they love and respect each other. Actions are misinterpreted, intentions are misunderstood. Then we lash out trying to convey our point of view usually at the expense of our loved ones feelings.

What breaks my heart is that times like these feel like my world is going to crumble. I begin to fear that I will be cast out and alone. Some of this is residual from our separation, conflicts with my kids, and rejection from close friends. But I need to have faith that we can make it through the arguments that are a part of life. This year has been enormously stressful on our whole family and we have clung to each other for comfort and support. Our family has a new strength and a renewed focus on our faith. I need to trust.

With Christ at the center of our lives and our love we cannot let the little conflicts destroy us. God be with us tonight as we pray for understanding and forgiveness. Please soften all of our hearts and open our eyes to each others point of view.

In Him,
Joyful
11-29-2010