He's My Son

What he needs right now is you, Lord.  It is hard to let go of my son, but I have to rejoice in his new reality. He is wrapped in Christ's arms, and that is the hope I had for him all along. Thank you Lord for taking him Home. The song, He's My Son, was one I listened to and prayed so often when Ry was struggling through life. Listening to it now I know that this heartbreak I feel is my loneliness for him. These feelings are so valid, but so is the fact that the words I prayed in that song over and over have been granted. 

I'm down on my knees again tonight
I'm hoping this prayer will turn out right
See there is a boy that needs Your help
I've done all that I can do myself 

Sometimes late at night I watch him sleep
I dream of the boy he'd like to be
I try to be strong and see him through
But God, who he needs right now is You 

So you see my son has all that he needs in Heaven. The peace and grace he couldn't let himself accept here on this earth.

Let him grow old
Live life without this fear
What would I be
Living without him here
He's so tired, and he's scared
Let him know that You're there

Mark Schultz

Though Ry didn't get the chance to grow old, I am trying hard to figure out how to live here without him. I am comforted that he is no longer tired, scared, or feeling the weight of his mistakes. God has enfolded him in His arms and assured him that he is valued and loved by all whose lives he touched. 

I am sure he was shocked to hear God's highest praise for the life he led. Where he saw failures others saw loving acceptance. His acceptance and encouragement for everyone mattered so much more than the mistakes he made. It is clear that all those nights we prayed God did hear and knew better than we did the path to Ryan's eternal life. 

In Him,

Joyfully missing my son

Happy Birthday Scooter!
3-2-2011

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