Will My Words Reveal a Grateful Heart?

I was looking back through my long ago written blogs and it occurs to me that I don’t know what I want. There are whiney words about how I couldn’t sleep past 4:30 in the morning. Boy was I complaining and frustrated by this early morning rise. Now I am at a place where I get up with my alarm at 6:00 am and oh how I wish I was up at 5:30 to start my day. My hope is to complete my Bible study, blog and spend quiet time in prayer. But before I can get through these precious gifts, it is 8am and time to engage in life’s tasks.

It would make me feel better if I could say this early morning was the only thing I complain about until it is gone. But I know that too often I longed for days I could stay home in pajamas when my life was on a busy hamster wheel. Now I am home more than out with my mom and I long to get up and just go. The truth that I will look back on these days just as I look back on my task filled days and realize how fleeting they are is not lost to me. My hope is to learn to embrace each moment rather than wishing for a different one. Life unfolds. My attitude can nestle into the beauty of each step or drag my butt through the sand kicking and screaming about my circumstances.

Today I am gifted with time with my mom, finances that allow me to be here and not at work, and a husband that supports us completely. I pray that when I look back at this season from my future self that my writing will reflect a grateful heart. Grateful for the gift of time with my mom, my best friend, my mentor, my dance partner.

In Him,
Joyful
1-30-19