Good Spellers Need Love Too!

Don't ignore me because I can spell! Support me even when I seem strong. It just doesn't seem fair that we only support those who seem to need us, when the reality is everyone needs attention and nurturing. Yes, I know that sounds harsh and ugly but that is how I feel. I grew up craving the attention my mom gave my sister when she needed help with homework and I didn't. Not fair! She misinterpreted it when I  spelled words wrong on purpose. I wasn't showing off,  all I wanted was to spend time with her too. Maybe I didn't need help with homework, but I needed her time and attention just as much.  It seems I am still stuck in this jealous mode when it comes to my family still feeling left out.

I know from my own experience that I need to be taken care of even if it seems I am coping well.  So just call me, hug me and tell me I can lean on you. I am not okay! My world fell apart and I have to just live through this nightmare of losing my precious son. So don't believe the smile on my face. Realize that I am terrified. Come hold me in your arms and comfort me. Living through this will be easier if you share my tears and help me see I don't have to make it through this on my own.

In Him,
Joyful
10-15-2010