His Eyes Show His Love

My focus has been on Him so my God sized hole has been filled. This weekend our family was all together except Dorothy and of course our precious son, Ryan. I am working through the sadness as best I can 6 months after the fact. But that fact haunts me with the truth that no more gatherings will include his smile and antics. Am I grateful for what I have? Of course! But I can't help weeping for what I have lost.

Lis sat in the rocker where 10 months ago her Daddy read her stories, looking at videos of him on an IPAD and knowing he will never hold her in his arms again. It broke all our hearts as we thanked God for the pictures and videos that will remind her of his love for  his little girl.

I came across a card he wrote to her that says it all.
'My little girl, I miss you so much. I just want you to know that even though Im not with you right now I still love you sooooo much! I think about you all the time. Ill be going out there when I am done with probation. I am so happy you are in the care of my awesome parents. I love you and I will write to you soon! Love, Daddy'

This was written when Lis was with us for 7 months and Ry was in Phoenix. How could we have known his simple message of love would be so precious to us a short time later. This card is Lis' link to her Daddy and I will guard his words to her so she can cherish them now and when she is older.

Video images of Ry are hard to watch yet draw me in. There is no mistaking the love his eyes convey for all of us, especially his sweet, little angel. My prayer is that she always believes what she sees in his eyes and hears in his words. He loved her even though he could not stay with us.

In Him,
Joyful
10-12-2010