I had a gut punch yesterday. Someone I love kept something from me and it just left me feeling on the outside looking in. The truth is, I got angry and wanted to delete them from my life. To say I overreacted is an understatement. Thankfully, I didn’t respond. Even my urge to pick up the phone and call my people to let them to share my anger. This morning I have a new perspective. To be honest, I don’t know if I was shunned or if there is another explanation. Perhaps I need to just wait and see.
So often I hope that others know my heart and view my actions through the lens of my heart. Each of us missteps and others can be offended by our actions. The hope is that my response is tempered by my knowledge of another’s character. The trouble is there may be history of past hurts that bubble back to the surface when a new situation unfolds. That is a part of my knee jerk response yesterday. The old hurts and forgiveness seem to put the pain far in the past. But one new situation can bring it screaming back.
Here I sit willing to wait and see this person’s intentions. But I am also stubbornly not ready to reach out and open the conversation. It is like I have decided that they need to prove to me that I was not wronged. Isn’t that mature of me? So I will pray for a willingness to take the first step to ease my point of view. My pride says no but my heart says this relationship is worth the risk. After all, I would hope others gave me the same opportunity if I hurt their feelings.
In Him,
Joyful
1-27-25
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