Joy To The World

My life is full of Joy~ That seems to be the common thread this year and I couldn't be more pleased. My Christmas gifts will all remind me of what makes life work; Jesus, Others, then Myself...JOY. From the delicate etching on a picture frame, to 3 carved glass letters that were made to rest on my mantle, Joy has been added to my home and my heart given lovingly from family and friends. Last but not least, my favorite Christmas song that we should sing all year; Joy To The World...the Lord has come!

Looking back on 2010, it has been the year with the greatest loss of my life and yet it has brought me more love and support than any other year of my life. Of course, if I could go back and change losing Ryan I would without a hesitation. Since that is obviously not one of my options, I am hoping to reflect on what I have gained this year, in between tears and holding pictures with his goofy smile that is.

Songs have been written, poems as well, tattoos have been created, a book is being developed, and my blog has survived in memory and in love of a son who was not here nearly as long as he was supposed to be. Friendships have become stronger through facebook and the common loss people who loved him feel. It simply amazes me the outpouring of so many for my son. Who knew the lives he was touching, not me.

In lossing Ryan this year, I gained an insight to a son I didn't realize I had. Oh, I knew how loving and encouraging he was to me, but I didn't know the impact he had on people he met sometimes only a few times. I wonder if he knew, truly knew how much he improved the lives of those around him. Through this tragedy, I found out so much more about my giving son. My hope and belief is that he can see clearly the incredible gift of hope he left behind.

In Him,
Joyful
12-29-2010