Exercise or Bed? I Shouldn't Be Allowed To Choose.

Romans 7:15 I do not understand what I do. For what I want to do I do not do, but what I don't want to do, I do. Oh I have a way of rationalizing all the things I avoid and excuses for the things I choose to do. I miss my son. I work so hard. I am worried about my throat. my son is having surgery. My son needs a job. But the bottom line is I choose to say no to those things that are good for me and yes to those which are not. Why am I beating myself up. I am stalling when it comes to exercising after work, getting tasks accomplished around the house, and avoiding an unpleasant job that I put off all summer. Instead, I am crawling into bed with my computer for company right after work. Justifying it is easy but it still is not how I want to live. Stress is best handled with checking off the things we must do and keeping busy with friends and family. I have written before that I don't want my bed to be my life. It is not my life right now but is certainly where I am spending too much time. A swift kick in the butt might help. Maybe I should wash my sheets everyday since I would avoid making the bed and then not be able to crawl into it. Maybe I need someone to pick me up for school so they won't bring me back and I will be forced to walk home. Exercise by default would be exercise after all. Pray for me and I will pray for you to do what we need to do and not what pulls us. In Him, Joyful 9-9-11